Day 76

Some days I hate my body. Today is one of those days. 

Tomorrow morning I'm scheduled to fly to Denver for a weekend of skiing at Winter Park. I'm hooking up with some fraternity brothers that I haven't seen in 20 years. Sounds good, right? Yeah, well about 5 hours ago my throat, all of a sudden, got really sore and it's been getting worse throughout the afternoon. I now feel like crap. 

This happens to me ALL THE TIME. Just as I'm about to get ready to go on a trip, I get sick. The same thing happened back in October. Three or four days before I'm scheduled to fly to Las Vegas (for work), I get a sore throat. I took massive amounts of vitamin C in the days leading up to my trip in the hopes that I could knock whatever it was but nope. I no sooner land in Vegas when it erupted into a full blown cold. Take if from me: being at a convention with a cold is even less fun after 2 years of the pandemic than before. Everyone treats you like a leper if you so much as cough or sneeze. And who can blame them. 

And here I go again. The night before I'm scheduled to go on vacation and I come down with yet another cold or flu. Hell, it may even be COVID. (I did take a PCR test a couple of hours ago which came back negative so probably not.) Whatever it is, I'm pissed. Why does this happen to me with such alarming regularity? It makes me want to scream. But then I realize that doing so would only make my throat hurt worse than it already does. 

I can't win...


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