Day 126

Today was better. Thankfully. All in all a rough week so I'm glad that it's almost over. The forecast for this weekend is calling for lots of rain. I would prefer sunshine but I can't control the weather so rain it is. I will need to stay busy so that I don't let the gray skies pull me down again. 

Here are some memories of Damian by his classmates that were shared with us:

Damian was in my biology class. He sat in the back of the room with Adam and Miles and Lara and Scott and they were always cracking each other up with jokes. Ms. Corbin always called on Damian to answer questions because he was extremely intelligent and insightful. I am not very good with computers so every time my laptop stopped working, [Damian] and Scott and Adam would always help me fix it. He was always a joyful presence in a stressful class. Last week we did an experiment in Bio where we drank tea that took the sweet taste in food away. I remember we were all trying broccoli and it tasted so bitter. The face he made when he and his friends were trying the broccoli was so funny and then he made a joke and we were all laughing. 

Anonymous

 Damian loved his friends. He especially liked having fun with them. 

Dear Mr. and Mrs. Beisner

My name is Jessica and I was new to Lakeview last year. Damian was in my AP Environmental class and his kind spirit was always shining. That class was very stressful for me but I can definitely remember how he was always laughing. Towards the end of the year, I was in a project with Damian and Adam. I remember how much fun he had joking with Adam while we were working and how we all had no idea how to do part of the project. We had to make a sphere of ice with different layers and I also remember how much fun it was when we were done and we could break the ice outside. 
 
I cannot begin to imagine how you feel. Damian was such a kind soul when I was around him and he will be greatly missed. I will be praying for y'all. 

Sincerely, 

Jess 

Jess, 

Thank you for sharing your memories of Damian. One of the things I miss most is hearing him laugh. It was very distinct. Hearty.  

It's been awhile since you shared this with us, but I want to let you know that both Mrs. Beisner and I are doing ok. We miss Damian every day and some days we miss him to the point where it really, really hurts; but we are still moving forward with our lives. 

I do hope that you and his classmates do think of Damian occasionally and that when you do, your memories of him bring a smile to your face. 

Mr. Beisner


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