Day 174

I'm tired tonight. It's been a long day.

The day started off early with my alarm going off at 6:15. I really didn't want to get out bed so it was another 15 minutes before I finally found the will power to go vertical. A few minutes later, I was cursing the shower in my hotel room for refusing to give me hot water. Before going nuclear on the hotel staff, I somehow managed to calm myself down and think through the problem rationally. A quick test of the available water temperature in the bathroom sink revealed that there was in fact hot water on tap. So why was there no hot water coming out of the shower? As an experiment, I turned the shower on again but this time I only turned the handle half way. Eureka! I had hot water. Further testing revealed that moving the shower handle to the fully open position made the water progressively cooler, while moving in the opposite direction, like I'm going to turn it off, made it hotter. The only explanation I can come up with is that the hot and cold water supply lines were connected in reverse to the shower faucet's mixing box. Good help is hard to find...

From 9 to 12:30 I was in a meeting with an existing customer where I wowed them with a demonstration of the cool features and functions of my company's latest software product. The demo went well. The folks in the room today are definitely interested in digging in deeper as to what else the product can do. This is our first opportunity to sell the new product to an existing client which makes the success of today's meeting a touch more rewarding. 

After the meeting, my colleague and I took one of customer contacts to lunch. It was pushing 2PM by the I left the restaurant and was finally on the road headed back to Atlanta. I pulled into my driveway just before 8:30. That's nearly 450 miles in six and a half hours with one stop for gas. I made good time but now I'm spent. 

I'm going to crawl into bed with Dawn before she goes to sleep. She had also had a long day but for an entirely different reason. She was feeling the weight of Damian's absence last night when she went to bed; it was still there this morning when she woke up. I think her afternoon was better but I don't want to assume anything. 

Talk to you tomorrow. 

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